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I had an especially bad day yesterday. We went to a live tree farm to choose our Holiday tree for this year. My dad was in a VERY bad mood because we went going late and rushed choosing it. He was snappy when I asked how much he wanted the tree to cost because he thought I was acting like a car salesman. I was annoyed by this so I wandered off and they chose the tree without letting me look at it. This was supposed to be a family activity and I was the one looking most forward to it.

On the flip-side, I discovered Metalocalypse and I love it. Toki is seriously me in man form. I have a fuzzy exterior and rage like you wouldn't believe when crossed or triggered. Most people don't see this side.

I'm reading Jane Eyre again. I love Jane. She is such a bad ass and I wish that one day I can be like her. I discovered this book during a period when I had just started therapy and had a lot of problems with social anxiety. I discovered I was bipolar. I also was then a budding feminist and feeling a bit alienated over the fact that I hadn't read many women authors or artists as I had never been introduced to them during my schooling before college.

"Women are supposed to be very calm generally: but women feel just as men feel; they need exercise for their faculties, and a field for their efforts as much as their brothers do; they suffer from too rigid a restraint, too absolute a stagnation, precisely as men would suffer; and it is narrow-minded in their more privileged fellow-creatures to say that they ought to confine themselves to making puddings and knitting stockings, to playing on the piano and embroidering bags"
- Charlotte Brontë,Jane Eyre, Chapter 12

This passage means a lot to me and I tear up when I read it and other parts of the book still. It's one of the reasons I refer to this book as my "Band Aid book." How fucking awesome is this character. There's another film adaptation coming out in February. I'm a little anxious over that, but I hope its good.